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I recently put a lot of work and a lot of effort into creating a new website.
It is not the first time I have done this in the past few years.
I have never released or opened up any of the other blogs or websites that I created, because usually I logic-ed myself out of them.
Now I have a platform (this domain) of which I am actually very proud.
I want to utilize this space…I want all of my ‘stuff’ in one place. I want everything integrated.

That is one of my personal Truths.
There is no divide between Work And Life, Family and Friends, Home and Sanctuary…everything is interconnected with me and for me. It is all part of the Whole of me. I do not and I cannot compartmentalize.
When I attempt to compartmentalize, I get fractured; I get lost; I lose focus; I lose…me…

That is what started to happen with this website…as I began to think, ok, I have this website, what do I want to do about it, what do I want to do about it…I always came back to…I want to create something to blog about…a blog that is not a part of the actual website (due to technical issues more than anything else)…which leading me back to…if I am attempting to draw people in and keep them interested…what good is the website…when everything will be showing up on the blog?

I have no desire to create a newsletter…I want to put everything in a blog post and let it be. In the past I created the newsletters the same way I create blog posts….I write…I schedule…I let it go…

In creating the website, of which I am actually quite proud, I was creating a box, a wall…and I don’t like that…it ate away at me…so I pulled all the information, all the offerings that I had on the website and … I updated my blog and turned it more into a website atmosphere…I created a front page for it…I created a blog page for it…I added every offering from the website on the blog, each in its own place.

I did a lot of work, a lot of soul searching, a lot of conversing with My Dear Work, and thinking about where I want to go with my Work and how I want to get there…and how I want to do that Work once I am there…

I have to start where I am. I have to be here now. I have to work where I am with what I have.

What I have is me. What I can do is share…share me.

And that is the thing…

All of this trying to wrangle around, trying to create a new site, trying to compartmentalize, it was so I would not offend certain people…

Every day I open a new email, however, I get this little jibe…my tagline for my email, under my name, under my web address, is this: “Never apologize for what you feel. It’s like saying sorry for being real.”

Then I had a conversation with a friend and mentor the other day…and that whole…hey, how long exactly have I been apologizing, this time, for being me…and why do I continue to do such a thing…

So I had to sit and have a good long deep think about it…

What this means for you here, my dear reader, is that I am going to do my best to approach my work from more my own self again…
I will be showing up here with more of who I truly am.
I will be showing up more honest, more valid, and more who I mean to be.

If this offends you…then so be it. If I am not your cup of tea, thank you for visiting. I do honestly wish you well. Merry meet and merry part. Your monkeys are not my monkeys…your monkeys are not a part of my circus…as in : not my circus, not my monkeys…hello…

This is a declaration of Self, give or take, here…

I do hope those of you who get it will continue along with me.

This journey promises to be one heck of a ride.

Blessings.

 

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