Hestia

I have spent years working with Hestia…years talking about the courses I am to create based upon Hestia and working with Her.

First of all, working with Hestia can be HARD. Especially when you keep saying I am listening…but you aren’t actually listening.

I started working with Hestia years ago, when my daughter and I were living in public housing.
It is with Hestia’s help that we were able to move halfway across the country into our own house, decorate it, start a life in it, make it a Home and find a way to be happy…

Until some kids up the road broke in and terrorized us – no, we were not home at the time, thank goodness…but the two teens that spear-headed the break in made it perfectly clear that that was going to continue to happen over and over and over—and as they had nothing better to do, as they’d be expelled from school (so the policeman told us) and no one really cared what they did or what happened to them (so the other parents of the other teens involved told us) – we were not going to stick around any longer than we had to…

So, we moved, into a house we were renting from a friend…and we did the same thing…we took this house, turned it into a Home, a Sanctuary…because that is what I need my Home to be…my Home needs to be my Sanctuary, and the Sanctuary for my family and my friends…

Then, the friend we were renting from had another friend come into town –and I thought we were doing a good thing for decent people by moving in with my boyfriend and letting that family rent the house…oh, let us not go there…I still wish we had never given up that house…

But… we did move in with my boyfriend…
Into his house…
Which we have since had researched, looked at, read and all sorts of other things…and I won’t go into it…
It’s a bit like living with the Reverend Henry Kane,this house.
Let’s just say, the House and I have finally reached an understanding…and that understanding is…we both want the kids and me out as expeditiously and as compassionately as possible–that is our agreement…

Living in this house has been—difficult…for health reasons, due to other health issues, for other constrictive reasons, as well as some really awesome neighbors on three sides…and such complete a**holes on two others.

Making it a Home – I lost my way…I lost my spiritual footing…I lost my Light…I lost my foundation…and when trying to work with Hestia…things get even more difficult…I got lost in my tunnel-vision…and hearing the Voice of Hestia – is nearly impossible…

So…I have had to rebuild so much…from scratch…and it has been difficult…

There has been so much talk about the Return of the Divine Feminine… I agree with Shiloh Sophia...the Divine Feminine, the Divine Mother, has never left us, not ever. We turned out backs on Her. We stopped listening; we stopped hearing…we are at fault, not the Mother.

One of the best things that has happened lately for me is that I have stopped fighting, I have stopped pushing, I have stopped focusing on that masculine model that has never worked for me, that has never spoken to my heart…and I am allowing myself to move more slowly, to listen without fighting to hear, to experience the things I once experienced on a daily basis…

I have spoken before about needing to find new methods of self-care, of finding new ways to utilize my old familiar ways of self-care and self-soothing.

The first thing I had to do—was stop fighting, cut off all those outside voices, and focusing on what means something to me again. As I started listening again, I started hearing Hestia again…

One thing that came up was my former purpose…creating Home as Sanctuary and Sanctuary as Home…
so I am back on my Path, working with Hestia, She who has never turned Her back on me, She who stood there, knowing eventually I would return to Her open arms….

I still have so much work to do to reach the level where I was a few years ago….but I am more than willing to do the work…and my eyes are open and I am getting clearer every day.

If nothing else, the material for the Hestia workshops that I have been touting for several years is quite abundant at the moment.

I’ll keep you updated as things progress.

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