A River Drive

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This weekend, we went for a drive on the IL side of the Mississippi River.
It’s one of those things…the energy on that side of the river is vastly different from the energy on this side (the side I live on) …
I had forgotten that I love to live close to the River – I love that energy…there is water, which is a necessary thing for me, I am finding out. Running water. Our next place I am sure will have a stream or a creek on the land somewhere.
The houses remind me of WV and MD – places I miss deeply – none of the houses look like the houses around it. There is tier-ing…as in there is one level of street and houses…and then up the side of the hill is another tier or street and houses..and then higher up the hill another tire of street and houses…WV and MD are all built up into the mountains and the hills around that area.
That side of the river has a lot more Nature too…trees and glens and forest and untapped hidden spaces. On this side…there Wildness is not there—if you know what I mean.
This side of the river feels tight and tense and … broken…while on the other side there is fresh air, a slower pace, a deeper magic…
I was able to relax as we drove the long straight road alongside the river. The scenery was beautiful, whether you watched the scenery—the houses, the stores, the motorcycles—fly by on the right side…or whether you watched the river on the left.
There was something that fell off my shoulders, that drifted away from my stormy heart…and there was something that came forward and embraced me with comfort and compassion…a force that I rarely feel anymore…but a force that I used to imbue, imbibe, and reflect … and I realized there how much I missed it…I missed being able to feel like…me…like who I truly am…like who I am deeply meant to be…
Strange things brought me back down…
Even as we drove, as I sat in the passenger seat, all three kids in the back, I had that sadness begin to seep upwards…a sadness I tucked back down and told to go away until it was actually time for it to come forth…I did not want it to ruin my time on that day…it was the sadness of the knowledge that I would not be able to feel this energy, this relaxation, this inner calm and energizing…for who knows how long…
But…my goal that I brought back with me is to figure out how to capture that energy and bring it back into my daily life…
Do you have any suggestions or ideas? I would love to hear them.

watermarked-lions gate #2

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