And Now…The NaNoWriMo Update…

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NaNoWriMo.

I had intended to do this thing this year.

I am usually a pantser.  I start with a basic idea and then I run with it…er…rather I let it run me…until we finish the story…or run our course…whichever…

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This year, even just three weeks ago, I was working on outlines and character assessments, deciding on genre combinations, picking out the color of the darn curtains in my main character’s bedroom, for goodness sake…

And then, I took the Deep Exhale online class with Mara Glatzel.  I love this woman.  Oddly enough, I have been doing a lot of work around rest, and taking care of my self, and taking care of me lately…not all of it has made an impression on me.  Mara, with her gentle voice and gentle ways hit me.  By the second week of the Deep Exhale, something started to crack…and it kept cracking…it is still cracking…there is a lot of work to be done here…

Some days I choose to push myself to finish something before bed…other times I put things away purposefully and I took my self to bed–because I know I deeply need the sleep…among other things…

I began to look at NaNo.

All that pressure.  Write write write.  Word count.  Bonus.  Blah bah bah.  Be a winner.

Oh-my-god–can we say STRESS?  Even though, ya know, there are no NaNo police or anything.  No one comes to your house and smacks you around because you failed to complete your NaNo novel in the allotted time–or because you fell behind in your word count–or for any other reason…it would be a stress that I would put on myself, a new task on my gotta get it done asap list…and something I would use to goad and manipulate myself to push myself further and further and further into this deficit hole I am already so far down inside of.

So, I let go of “winning” NaNo this year.

I did, however, set myself a different goal.  My goal is simply to write every single day…and not just in the month of November, but every day…until, ya know, my hands fall off or something.

Now, I journal every day, pretty much.  I write my gratitude every day.  There are blog posts to write, emails to answer, classwork to delve into…but…I had stopped writing fiction…and poetry…

A long time ago, I bought a book called: A Writer’s Book Of Days by Judy Reeves.  I started to work my way through it.  I still have that journal that I wrote in.  Because I would start.  I would stop.  I would decide to write using a prompt periodically.  Whatever.  Now, I am working through the prompts.  Daily.

Ideally, I would like to work my way through every daily prompt, and maybe some of the extra prompts.  This is one of my unofficial goals here.  This would be a 365 project I can live with and actually do.

The funny thing is…right now, I am using every prompt I come to as a vehicle to work within the parameters of my novel that I was planning to write for NaNo…and I really like it.  Every now and then, I come upon a stumper as to how to relate it to my novel…but that keeps it fun.

Will this mean I write my novel in bite sized bits via these prompts throughout the coming year?  Nope.  But it does mean I will 1 be a lot more comfie with my characters and where they are coming from, who they are, how they think, etc.  And 2 it means I am fine-tuning that writer-girl in me.  Writing is one of those things that has fallen by the wayside in the past few years that I intend to pick back up, slowly, compassionately, and with much joy…because writing feeds my soul.

To date, I missed one day due to illness and I refuse to beat myself up over that.  Sickness and the dire need for sleep trumps anything else–except the toddler and maybe the two crazy dogs…and that gerbil bent on taking over the world…he must have his fruit loop every morning or bad things will happen, people…

And as weird as it sounds…missing a day brought me to the page where I then worked three prompts that day instead of the one I missed and the one for that day…and that was really fun…

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