That For Which I Am Grateful

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Did You Think I Forgot The Full Moon?

Well, honestly, I had.  I was so busy and so caught up today…sick kids and sick Mama –that just sucks…add in technological issues (which my Computer Shaman FIXED today, bless his heart)…my brain was off in some other La La Land…and I did not even LOOK at my calendar…until my daughter said, Happy Full Moon…and I was actually flabbergasted for a moment–how could I have forgotten that–especially when I have classes that I keep up with that release materials only on the New and the Full Moon?  And yet…hello, I did…

HOWEVER…

Remember me telling you I was working on the very last spread of the very first journal that I made myself from scratch?

I figured I would have that spread done this weekend … and that this Full Moon I would be working in my other hand-bound journal…ahhh…nope…see the first paragraph here is you missed why…that and we got Hulu this weekend and I have been in a Rupaul’s Drag Race marathon ever since…seriously addictive…I could write a whole post on why this show is one of the best and most positive shows I have ever come across…but…not today…

Now, I have been working on that last spread.  I get five minutes here, ten minutes there…they add up…and some weeks, that is how I have to work on everything…one minute here, one minute there…I take what I can get and I roll with it…so I had a gorgeous background at the ready…and I knew for the last spread I wanted to do a face…because I started with a face…I just thought it would be a nice tribute…

Then, after my toddler crashed for the night two nights ago, I decided, I loved my background — but not the color…so I glued a piece of tissue paper down over it–teal tissue paper.  Why?  Because once that paper hits the glue on the substrate…the paper sort of melts and vanishes and you can see everything underneath…but now I had a nice cool blue background and had knocked back all the busy as well…

The last thing I did before going to bed last night, once everything was dry, was chalk in a face and the sentiment I needed to have on this page…I loved how I opened the journal…”Unfolding”–so I had to have something magical to end with…although I must admit I just trusted my intuition there and let it ride…and if you can guess the movie this quote is from…well, you must have kids who love that movie… (It’s Shark Boy and Lava Girl...in case you don’t know)…

But…if you look really carefully…I am not sure how much the scan picked up–because even right here in front of me…it’s not that easy to find…there is a sentiment along the side of the face…and that is also … very amazing…and unexpected…I picked up a pen with no idea what I was going to write…and that is what came out…

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First thing I know (and notice) is that — I have a new white pen and it and I need a lot more practice together…it wasn’t in the mood to play nice tonight and honestly, neither was I.

The face is not all that much…but it wasn’t meant to be…I could not get those cheeks to blend out anymore than they are…so I let it go…

The really mind-blowing thing was…after the sealant dried, after I scanned her in, I sat there, and I flipped through the whole book.  It’s more than a year’s worth of effort.  I did not date the first few pages–I only started making sure I dated every page in January…and to think, from January of this year until now…I have working in this journal…and I filled the whole thing up.

Flipping through it, I really was caught by how my work has shifted and changed…and how I have shifted and changed…stunning…that’s all I can say…and yes, now I understand why my best friend keeps telling me why she loves my latest work so much…I do get it…wow…I didn’t realize I was creating such good stuff…to me, all I see is where I need to improve when I am in the moment…but being able to step back and just look at things…heck, I still have a long way to go…but, boy, am I really happy with where I am and what I am doing.

Thanks to all of you who come along for this ride all the time.  I am honestly grateful for your love and your support.  Thank you.