I cannot remember from what source the idea of the Shadow Animal Spirit or Totem came from. I have an idea, but I don’t want to misquote it. Just know, the Shadow Spirit Animal is not my own invention or anything. I happened to read a newsletter or blog post that made its way into my inbox…and it completely captivated me.
I have never even heard of having a Shadow Spirit Animal or Shadow Spirit Guide. So, I started to — not study it, not buy books, not go online and read up on. I stopped all of my usual let’s delay the inevitable by sucking up all the knowledge I can possibly find–my typical scholarly way.
I instead went inside and I asked the question: who here speaks for me?
I asked all day long. I didn’t want nor did I expect an instant answer–even though I did get one. I held that answer, but wanted to make sure. So, I kept asking. That night, as I lay down to sleep, I made a clear request to journey in Dream Space with that Shadow Animal so that we could talk.
My Shadow Totem never wavered, has never wavered. He has been there all along. I’ve known about him. I just never thought of him in those terms before.
Now, this year, I mean to do my best to seriously, consciously and consistently work with him–and see what comes of it.
My Shadow Animal Totem … is the frog. Specifically, the leopard frog.
Frog has been with me since I was a child, when my favorite toy was a bean bag frog named Gilligan. I left that toy behind when I left home when I was sixteen–and that frog to this day is the one and only thing I regret not taking with me. I miss that old thing, more than I care to admit some days.
I don’t know what is going to happen, or how we are going to work together, or how much I will share of the journey–but Frog is with me now…consciously — and I am not letting him go anywhere again.