Checking In With My Word Of The Year

This is “supposed to be’ My Year.  I am supposed to be getting back on track.  I am supposed to be getting things done.  And yet…and yet…I have literally been ill in one way or another since …January…pretty much non-stop.  The kind of illness that is too low-grade to go to the doctor…the kind of sickness that requires medical intervention…the kind of sick that falls somewhere in between.  Yes, there have been times that I have felt decent…but they have been few and far between, since last year.

So…how am I doing with my word of the year, mise en place?  Actually, being so sick, being unable and unwilling to pick up knitting, or crochet work, or a book, or anything…and add into that driving for roughly twenty-eight hours (no, not all at once—over a three-day trip)—these have given me a great deal of time to think, to ponder, to delve…more than I normally do anyway.  Especially during the trip, I thought more in-depth about several things that I have been thinking about doing for a few months—and by having this time, basically to myself, I finally found some footing about certain things—I received confirmation that yes, I should definitely do this, definitely go this direction, and definitely should let that go, should not do that, should not go there…and it’s been wonderful.

Now, all I need to do is actually DO the work…and I will feel better about things all around.

Although, every now and then, that word of the year, mise en place, comes back up and reminds me that it means—preparing things and having everything in its place…and when I feel stuck in illness as I have lately it strikes me that this needing to sit still and just be with ME instead of every other little thing that I do is exactly the sort or preparing that I ought to be doing more regularly—but haven’t quite figured out how to make enough time to do so…on top of being sick enough to just not feel like moving for months on end…

I do try, when I feel up to it—I actually have blog posts (two or three) that I wrote last month—on my laptop (that I try to keep offline—except to transfer posts blog posts and similar things to my desktop, where I add pictures and whatever else needs to be added before posting them on my blog)—I meant to post said blog posts in April…I meant to post the April poetry prompts there as well…and you see how well that went…

For right now, I am just going to keep doing what I can as I feel up to it…and then when I am more able (please, Universe, please let that be soon) I will bore full-steam ahead.  Otherwise, I will just work in dribs and drabs until then…

Until next time…

 

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Tabitha Low

Writer, Artist, Journey Creatrix