So Much For “Easing Into” The New Year…

So, we are nearly halfway through (!!!) the first month of the New Year…and all my plans for this is what I am planning for my blog here have come to …nothing…because the Universe apparently had other plans…

I started making art.  I started a fiber project journal (for knitting and crochet).  I started writing up posts for the blog.  I have plans in the works for my Gumroad shop.  I have things written up in my planning notebook…and then…and then…I got sick…like sicker than anyone could ever be sick with some virulent germ-bug that basically took me out of action, literally, for over a week…on top of the other issues I have.

I stepped into January with Christmas presents yet to knit…and thankfully those I finished–and the recipients loved them.  They were projects for Duncan and people who help him–he wanted to do something–he wanted me to knit something–he picked out yarn and colors–he picked out patterns…so a collaborative effort there.

And in a fluke of serendipity (thank you, Universe) — all those hats I was going to knit for people for #hatnothate, hats to be completed before October last year–yep, finally got those out to people this past week–and nope, I don’t think more than one or two were actually any shade of blue–but the people wanting and needing hats from me–got them…before, ya know, spring or summer arrived…

Overall, a productive month thus far, behind the scenes…but I have PLANS for this year…and for this space…and as all my plans go…it seems I will be moving more slowly than I plan for, more slowly than I like–but I AM moving…and moving forward…

So…watch this space…I swear things are percolating and will soon be showing up here…slowly but surely.

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Whimsical Wednesdays 2019 — Theme Announcement

Coming every Wednesday in 2019 will be an animal for you to interact with.  use this as a time to explore the animal itself, or perhaps journey with a new spirit animal, whatever takes your fancy.

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I have tried to maintain a neutral animal type when possible–for example, I say dog and not husky, or poodle, or spitz.  You get the picture.  However, there are times when a specific animal will be used because my son helped me pick out some of the animals and he was quite adamant about using certain animals (brush up on your lemurs, people…and be sure to thank the Kratt Brothers for all their hard work–with my son, it really does pay off…)

I will suggest an animal for the week–although you are free to choose any animal you like or that calls to you at any time–and I will offer up a few questions to help you in pursuit of a connection with the given (or any other) animal…

Enjoy the New Year’s coming prompts.

 

How Is It April Already?

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I forgot that this was April.  I forgot it was National Poetry month.

Honestly, I just flipped the calendar over to the new month yesterday and didn’t notice a thing.

However, I still get emails.  Today, on the 5th, is the first day I received anything that said anything about Poetry month.

On top of that, I know that the 100 Day Project began two days ago.  I have had plans for this year’s 100 days project for a while.  And it fits in beautifully with Tara Leaver’s free 7-day challenge that started today.

Last week, due to the 100 Day Project, I was cognizant enough to pick up paint specifically for my project.  I bought three colors of postcard-sized cardstock, I think back in December (brown, white, black).  I’m not worried about starting late, because with our days, I never thought I would make one thing a day for one hundred days—but I did want to make 100 things within the time allotted.  So I had planned to set up space one day during the week and paint out as many cards as I felt up to…and then work on the individual cards throughout the coming week as I felt able.

Plus, I got an extra push this morning when I received an email from the Kindness Rocks Project suggesting that we leave Random Art of Kindness cards as an art abandonment project.  My original idea was to make up 100 art cards, write or doodle or something (that part hasn’t gelled up quite yet) and then … leave them for people to find…

So—what am I babbling on about here?

The fact that I have four days of poetry to catch up on…and it’s time for me to start my 100 pieces project…as well as making sure I take more than enough time to rest rest rest, recuperate and heal.  Luckily, I can smoosh and splash paint while sitting on the couch…because I am so worn out at the moment…if I had only a few spoons a day before surgery, right now I have one spoon per day…and an energetic five-year-old on top of that…

I will be posting my work as I go along…

Thanks for listening.

Greetings

 

A little update for everyone.

I spent most of February planning and preparing for surgery.

Surgery has come and gone.

Everything went well.

I am still healing, and moving very slowly in all areas of everything at the moment.

More content will be arriving, but I have no steady deadlines at the moment.

My focus is on my health.

Everything else will fall into place as it needs to.

Thank you for thinking of me.

Stop. Wait. Breathe. (January Check-In)

Ok.  So I hate the fact that it sort of feels to me as if this January is going much like 2017 went for me…far too quickly, with very little actually being accomplished.

I have to admit that a monthly zine, monthly knitting pattern, weekly fiction and non-fiction and poetry–on top of trying to take a House and make it as Home-like as if possible, while teaching the small fry how to read and write, while dealing with chronic health issues that no one else seems to worry about…I am sort of venty today; I apologize ahead of time.  It’s not easy.

Also, I apologize for talking again about things I have already talked about here…I am working through things.

I still feel as if I am catching up from December.  We went to the East Coast to visit my family on a fast week-end before Christmas…we left on a Friday and were back by Sunday.  A thirteen-hour trip…with the five-year-old.  The trip itself wasn’t so bad, which I had worried about for me especially, with the pain issues I have.  But once home again, we had to get ready for Christmas…and no, we still haven’t found all the Christmas decor and decorations…I basically boxed up a whole bunch of stuff…toys and other stuff that was waiting to be sorted and organized and placed–which included some stuff we brought back from my family…a lot of books, yarn, and toys…oh the toys that can be here…even though I go through them and purge them frequently…but downstairs in crates and boxes, waiting, because we needed room upstairs to put the tree and all sorts of other things.  Then, the holidays over, and the cat tree back in front of the window, so the cats are happy and the gerbil is…exposed again (her cage, not the rodent herself–her biggest threat is the Saluki mix who will nose the tubes out of alignment…because the 70 pound dog does not understand that the tiny little mere ounces rat is not really a good playmate for her to have…)

We dismantled an old desk that I had been using for art storage–found a TON of stuff on it that I have been looking for or had totally forgotten about.  The desk was replaced by shelves, which are already working SO much better, even though I am not even halfway done sorting, purging and organizing…but already….I can find things when I want them…there is more light in the room…I’ll be speaking more of this process later on in relation to a different topic…but…I have to go through everything…and I have brought up all the boxes and crates from Christmas-time–well, actually not all of them…there are still crates of books and toys waiting…I couldn’t bring all of them up at once…it would have been overwhelming … and would have created more chaos than I could handle.  I am already at the end of my rope…so I don’t need to make it worse on myself.

So.  I am sorting, as much as I am able every day.  I have been stalled waiting to get storage containers that I need for various projects because this is not all about just the dining room/office and art space (which are indeed the same room).  I am also circling out and around to work on the living room, and the boys’ room…because one goal is to make sure there is room for the youngest in his own bed…which means removing several large sharks (thank you, Ikea), large catfish, and large alligators (three gators, three–we have an entire CLAN of gators around here). Yes, these are stuffed animals, not live creatures.

Am I rambling?  I am explaining to myself more than anything because I have been working … every day …and although I definitely see changes and results…I also see just how much more work there is…and that alone can be debilitating for me.

Add onto all of this organizing and purging…I have a household to take care of.  There is laundry.  Every day there is laundry.  The oldest is not allowed to use the washer on her own because she tends to overload the thing and I don’t want to have to replace it every year or so because of her … uhm … lack of attention to things, shall we say.  There are dishes to be done.  Trash and recycling to get out.  Meals to prepare.  A small boy to chase around and spend time with and try to teach something other than plants and zombies. Plants versus Zombies (one and two) are his current loves because he is no longer permitted on Youtube or Kids Youtube.  As he cycles out of the need for the iPad and into other activities…he is blooming…it’s a process.  The results, however, are a much nicer boy…

And on top of that, it’s been too cold outside for me to take walks…especially since I have the lazy git of a 5 yo who prefers to ride in the stroller while I shove it up and down the road…and the sidewalks here … I often say I might be better walking in the woods with the stroller, because the sidewalks are tilted, hilled, broken, and cranky…in my experience of trying to get a stroller that in most other circumstances is easy to push and move around.  I have to do some stretching every single day.  If I don’t, muscles shrink and contract, which encourages pinched nerves and exacerbates the “normal” pain that I have.  I found myself doing simple stretches and seeing some lovely results, only to learn that yes, stretching helps, but a great deal more is needed and necessary.  No matter how I stretch or twist, no matter how I work to get my breathwork back up to speed (while having apparently undiagnosable breathing issues, mind you), the pain is not going away.  No, thank you, OTC painkillers do nothing.  No, thank you, I do not want prescription painkillers.  I am far too aware of their long-term effects.  I do what I can.  I pray about everything.  End of statement.

That is a daily list of what I do.  Daily.  On top of trying to write, of trying to read, of trying to knit, of trying to keep up with Lifebook 2018. I haven’t even tried to keep up with my own art yet this year.  Although I have notes.   Lots and lots of notes.

Now, to the genesis of this post…I will be posting the free zines, the free knitting patterns, when I am able.

My great planner project–which is a lot like bullet journalling, only different…it is not working.  I made my list of priority projects for January, both work and home.  I made a daily to-do list as well, as there is space to make a to-do list on one page…and then track everything that happened on the other.  At the end of the day, I check in, mark things off, transfer things to the next day if need be…and … I have accomplished exactly none of my goals this month…with a week of January left.  So, this planner system isn’t working for me…because I can’t see the deadlines ahead of time…and if I transfer the monthly and the daily lists over every day…I am going to hate myself because I keep track of things to show myself I am doing something — and copying everything over every day…it would break my heart…because that’s what I have been doing with the daily to-do lists and it has made me cry more than once. My planner, like so many other things in my life, is meant to support me and nourish me…to give me hope and show me I am accomplishing my goals, slowly or otherwise…and right now, that planner is a big bully, rubbing in my face that I am unwell, unhealthy, and unable to keep up with even simple things that “everyone” should be able to keep up with…

On top of this, it is difficult for me to remember that January does not have to be a high action/activity month as this is still Winter.  Technically, this is an incubation time.  A time to hibernate, to ruminate.  To pop up when it warms up a bit, like the thin little squirrels bustling around today, and then to go quietly back into the den when things turn icy once again.

I am not saying I will not do these things (zine, knitting, etc)…I am saying…I won’t be forcing myself to rush to do these things.  Look, I have been trying to get my hair cut since January 1…I haven’t made it there yet.  It will happen.  Hopefully before February.

Maybe the zine will be quarterly.

The January knitting pattern…I have the test knit about a third of a way completed.  I had several things come up this month that I needed to finish before the test knit…gifts and other things.  It happens.

So–everything will happen.  In its own time.  And I have to be ok with that…because the guilt of not being able to do it all right this minute … it’s killing me.

Until next time…and thanks for sticking around…

 

 

 

Boom! Boom! Pow!

So, I love Lion Brand Mandala yarn and their colorways…heck, I love the NAMES of these colorways…

I knit my sweater in Sphinx.

I have some Gnome here somewhere.  I have Chimera.  I just bought some Unicorn last week.

I have it written down somewhere when I started this Boom! scarf.  I know it was around the beginning of last November because I worked on the scarf and the Strange Brew sweater interchangeably, depending on where I was and what was going on…

The first one … which I worked on all the way to my mom’s in December…and bound off not long after we got back…was made using Lion Brand Mandala in Chimera.  I used a US 8 needle and followed the pattern exactly.

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Working on the shawl today

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Mountains in the distance

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I wore it a week, maybe two, because I finished it before New Year’s…and then, my youngest decided he needed it because it is so cold outside.  He took it.  He has to have it wound around his neck before we leave the house.  Once in the truck, the first thing that comes off is his mittens…and then the scarf…which he refuses to put back on….so, the scarf gets dragged all over the place, but I can’t wear it…

So, I started a new one…using Lion Brand Unicorn…and size US 10 needles…I cast on a new one.  Same pattern…and I am following it exactly.  Just larger needles…and it is going so much faster, for which I am grateful…I just started it this weekend…no pictures posted of it yet…but I will get there.

I am debating knitting a hat to match each of the Boom! scarves.  My old Rikke hat is getting ratty…

I’ll keep you updated…